It's been one hell of a week with many good results mixed with many, so many, hard and rough results. I don't know how to cover it all but will try briefly to capture what I can so I will have a brief record for myself to reflect over. I love it, I sort of hate it, I`m eating better than I have for years, My body has not co-operated and adjusted very well, my diabetes has been very up and down dangerously so. All in all although things are actually good it`s hard, so very hard to move through this major transformation in my life and am so lonely and scarred with what's happening to and with me.
Arrived Monday afternoon. Rocky made the trip much better than I.
- was put up in a furnished room for 2 nights
- Movers arrived around 8am Wed morning
- No way was my stuff going to fit in little bachelor and the fridge I was told that would be there was told No way I could have it, I needed it due to diabetes issues
- Fell apart when movers got here and had Marketing Director, Executive Director and my brother on phones to figure this mess out
- I was put in a 1 bdrm apartment for a year then we'll all review it then
- I can not go through another move so will not move downtown Ottawa as I had wanted to
- Will make my life from here for better or worse.
- l'm having a bit of a difficult time adjusting once again to living with all the seniors. They smells of Urine and Bowel movements not being taken care of by the very busy and understaffed PSW's.
- finding it hard to deal with difficult and obnoxious seniors but working on my self to walk away or just listen and let it slide off my back. Not overly successful with this yet but am trying and know I will improve with time
- Lots and lots of emotional tears have been suddenly spilling out of me in public and in the privacy of my own rooms.
Much, so much, more has happened this past week. I just couldn't sit here and type out my daily thoughts. It's been rough but I am getting by with so much gratitude for and to Kelsey and Glen. They are my Rocks to hold onto in this sea of deep waves. I have never ending Gratitude for Kris who is trying her best to help me through this transition and for my oldest and dearest friend Lynn. She came this morning and we kibitzed with each other like we always use to. It was fun and very joyful for me. She even climbed up on Chairs to help me get the last of the very large and heavy prints hung on my wall enabling me to slowly hang all else over time by myself. Soon, real soon, I will will be ready to take pictures and get them put on my FB pages for all to see. That will be a great milestone accomplishment when all is said and done. Can't wait!!!
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