The day was starting out very quiet and peaceful. I was just settling into watching my CSL service when I contacted my brother. He said if I wanted to pick-up a few groceries he could pick me up in about 5 minutes time. It's raining and cold so I knew I could not take my scooter out. I decided to take up his offer to come and get me but unfortunately had to miss the service. I figure I can watch the video when it gets posted eventually. I was very unstable and forgot to take my cane with me. It was really difficult when I was out but managed as best I could, got what I needed and got back home safe and sound. I'm getting to accept that a lot of these problems are because of my very heavy smoking and I know I will have to do something about this. I am not yet ready to begin contemplating doring what is needed to rectify this problem of mine but I am very aware that I will have to. I just don't know when the time will come.
So basically I missed what I need to nourish my spirit but have faith that I will get my very much needed nourishment eventually either today, tomorrow or sometime and will not fester over this. It will happen and that is the important thing. They posted the service just before dinner and I watched it and was thoroughly nourished as I'd expected I would. I love CSL and what they believe and their philosophies and joy of life and community so very much.
Nothing happening tonight. I am so friggin exhausted and sore I really hope I can make it tomorrow morning to volunteer at the hospital. I'll just have to play it by ear and see what's what when I awake early in the AM.
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