Jan.09/14 Back to Activities finally

Wow it's been hard to keep inputting into this blog. After a really rough and emotionally charged Christmas Season I'm very proud of myself tonight. I got through it and saw Margo my former councilor to talk with her about the issues that plaqued me. I really needed to hear her input about this and even though it was very emotionally charged it was a very good session with lots of insight and reminders of all the sessions we had over the previous year. Tonight I'm happy and content and am looking forward to getting back into group. We talked today about my fears and anxiety about group and how I can make it better. I have talked very briefly with Kris but probably won't until next week sometime as she is focused totally on her son Jack. I've talk with Carm and told her about my session as since she was a key player in most of my issues over Christmas. There are plans to go to her place tomorrow to have a nice visit and to see and play with the dogs and cats. I am really looking forward to it but can't allow myself to fall apart should she cancel out which can happen with Kris. Tonight I'm going to read my really good book, watch some TV and go to bed. After a long day of coucil and volunteering I mentally and physically really tired. That's really it for today. I am very very grateful that Margo could fit me in so fast and for the discussions we had. I am grateful that Carm is still in my live after all the shit I pushed on her. Of course I'm always grateful for Kris and where our friendship is now. Tomorrow's another day with new challenges and fun things to face