MS Pain really bad

Christ if it's not one thing it's another and it's my MS pain in my legs that's killing me yesterday and today. I also missed taking my night meds last night due to major personel issues that caught me off gard and off balance. In other words a hell of a bad night last night with NO sleep at all. Also, almost gave up on my friendship with Kris as it had once again become very very difficult for me to cope with. I need her so much more that she is able to give me. We both know this but I certainly don't have to like it very much. I can not bring myself to leave her But I have to confirm within myself to respect her and love her the only way I can to let her be what and who she needs to be for her to get through her journey in one peace. I can't gurantee that I won't loose control again before this is all said and done but I'm going to give it all I have because having her at some point and allowing my love to flow thru me to her and her love she says that she has for me flow and blossom when and if the universe deems it so for us. I hope to God this is true for us, for her for me....God hear my prayers, please make this come true for us. Please help us both Lord....