May 25/13 Alot of wow's today

Today wasn't terribly eventful but alot of things transpired which were all quit good. I'll try to keep my explanations brief but as my old high school teacher once coined me having verblal diarreha I'll try to keem myself reined in. Because of my reconnecting with my friend my interrest in my spiritual learning has re-blossomed once again. I've issued an email to my spiritual teacher with hopes of getting started up again. My depression has lifted and I want to get back to where is was before its onset. I attempted to connect with the streamed service this morning but they were experiencing transmission issues so not much luck there. However, I did manage to watch last weeks service and it was very good and calming for me. I'l try watcht todays service if they were able to record and post if for later viewings. Fingers are crossed for success with that. Later this week my friend and I will have a discussion on both her service and mine. That should be good too. My sons highschool prom is next Saturday night and I finally got him to reveal the name of the friend he is taking. He's such the typical teenage boy/man and never reveals anything personal. Maybe he's just exibiting what all males do and never talk about anything. That's most definitely a guy thing that women really really dislike. Anyway I think I'm projecting some of my own issues here as well. Being the mom that I am I immediately set out to find this young ladies FB page. She is really a cute looking young lady. I'm really happy for my son. He's even bought a new suite to wear. I wish I could see him before he sets out on this fun evening but I can't so I've made him promise me he will make sure he gets some pictures for me to see when I do gegt back home in a few weeks. He tells they are just school friends and nothing more which is a good way to have it since he is just only verging on turning 18. I have some very personal issues I want to talk about with my friend as she has been my teacher on some things I just never learned in my past 53 years of of living life as a woman, a self satisfied woman. I'm talking lof course of self gratification. I've spoken before of this issue and since I never found love and intimacy with another I need to find other successful means. She has agreed to discuss this again with me but is concerned that this could possibly an issue that might cross some boundaries we've set up to protect both her and I. I really don't think this would fall under that but I will certainly keep myself aware so it won't happen. It's because of our willingness to talk about everything and anything that I cherrish so much about this friendship. I have the monthly meeting of the Disability Accessories Committee tomorrow and am expecting it could be a bit volitile as several members are dissatisfied with our being taken seriously. I did some catchup reading on the government directives on conducting these meetings and who is responsible for what. It should be interresting for sure. I have to get there early and probably stay later to have further discussions on strategies and action items. Looking forward to it for sure. I also want to see if I can find more volunteer work within City Hall to be around alot of working people. I need to find ways to get out of this apartment and feel more useful and somewhat more important to my life and others. I hope I can find something! Got out for some really nice fresh air on my scooter as it has warmed up alot. I find it hard though going out with no purpose in mind or no place to go. But it is still nice so I scooted around while doing laundry which gave me something tangible to do. The cravings were more persistent today but certainly manageable. I just had to make sure I didn't go anywhere near a store as that would be a bit to tempting on me. Slo other than being my typical lonely self the day has been a good success for me and I'm pleased with the day so far.....until tomorrow then, keep your faith strong deana and keep your smiles broad and beautiful.....