June 07/13 -Today I start Again

I've got through a lot of stuff and have now decided to start my old blog with it's new parameters. I'm heading home to see my kids and will be there Tuesday June l2/13. I'll be staying with a friend for a couple of days then will see the kids on June 14th. I'm so excited since I have not seen two of them in over a year, the other in 6 months. Just way to long but it can't be helped. I know someday I'll move back for good but this won't happen for at least 5 years. This weekend is dedicated to packing and getting all my meds and supplies organized, get my monies together and am even treating myself to a spring cleaning tomorrow morning. There is certainly no lack of things to do this weekend so I know I will not say my usual boring weekend. It will take me the whole two days to get it all together. Today I volunteered up at the hospital but it was so not busy that I only stayed for an hour and a half. Later in the day I went back out to get a hair cut which really felt great getting. So I am looking forward to writing to and for myself again and I am feeling really positive and happy that I've reach this point in my journey. I found a wonderful meditation that I did for the first time today. I certainly have much to learn so that I will be able to put worries and stresses aside and let my mind free itself of thoughts to let the meditation relax and calm me. Someday, I know I will gain greatly from this practice. Already I'm feeling a little of the benefits which is giving me hopes of gaining more as time passes. My biggest challenge I know is and will be clearing my very busy mind. It never stops racing but am looking for any pointers from others that meditate to help me with this. I am full of hope and faith which is so much further than I have been in past attempts at this. So here I go yet again. We are very clear as to what we want to accomplish deana. We will work together to not fall off the track. Both of us learned a very valuable and painful lesson with the way we let it go. So wish me luck on the second phase because writing to myself for myself is a wonderful helpful tool for me so long as I don't screw it up again.....until tomorrow then.....be happy and smell the roses deana....life and it's challenges can and will get in your way if you don't keep your faith in there is something worth waiting for in your journey deana....