Jun 30/13 love is so very hard to deal with I have been learning !!!

I'm good, really I am, but life sometimes is so bloody hard to take. I said I would never talk about the woman I fell so hard for but I think today, with it being Pride and all, it's taken me to a place that I feel I need to allow myself to sit with and think about. I don't ever regret the feelings I once had and still have but I'm in a better frame of mind now and can look at it without regret or fear that I will fall once again into the abyss it once painfully took me. I've learned!! Oh I know only too clearly that it will never come to pass. Life is a journey of many experiences, both wonderful and painful. It is only from these experiences that we can learn and grow into the ever evolving person we hope to be. I have learned so much over the many months and am extremely grateful that I finally did allow myself to learn. I am so grateful for all that this woman taught me and will someday find another to teach me even more and that I will have something to give her in return also. I hope so very much to find that person that the universe has already planned for me to find, a love so compelling and beautiful that the awe of it surrounds me that it will take my breath away. I am no longer yearning for it or pining for someone to complete me. I am busy completing me and loving me like never ever before. I'm really liking this new and very much improving me. For me, this journey is only just beginning and I am excited for where it will lead me. So that is why I'm letting myself feel everything and not trying to burry it deep within. My soul wants to feel and be alive with truth and wonder. My soul is what I want to nurture and be proud of. For me, by me. This is were I am today and it's so wonderful to finally find peace within my soul after so many years of not having this peace. I had no idea any of this stuff would come up within today but I am glad that it did. I will always have these many words to reflect on at time passes. This is what I have wanted my blog to be about. A great tool to help me learn what I'm all about as the days pass into months and even years to come. If anyone who reads my blog learns anything about themselves through my personal journey then I will have accomplished something of great importance to me. For this I will eternally be grateful for and that is my truth and always will be....