June 10/13 Differing Emotions Today

Had a 9:30am appointment to get more patches for the next 4 weeks. Got up early and got myself ready. I was really quite dumb in that I assumed todays weather would be similar to yesterdays and that it would be warm and sunny. Boy was I ever wrong. I headed out on my scooter in shorts and T-shirt to travel a far distance only to realize to late that it was Cold and raining. I froze my buns off as well as getting quite soaked. But success was in hand as I got my patches and headed back stopping briefly at the Dollar store and then straight home for a few hours until I had to head to the Hospital to see my Therapist. I called a cab this time as it was still raining and I just didn't want to get soaked again. To friggin cold. My therapy started off really good. I so can relate with my therapist but that changed rather rapidly. Somehow we ended talking about my family and which triggered a lot of tears and anguish. Before I knew it our session ended. I had no idea why or how we ended up talking about this. I thought we were going to talk about some readings she was going to get for me. Unfortunately she forgot to bring them along which kind of through me off a bit. Maybe that's how we ended up talking what we talked about. The session ended on a better note with me relating how I was getting into some Meditations and discussing how hard it is to keep my focus on the Meditation and not get sucked into may racing thoughts therefore not getting the much needed and wanted benefits of the meditation. She really reassured me that it takes time to learn how do it and to just keep on doing it. So, I promise myself that that is just what I will do. I want all the goodness that I know if persistent will come my way from learning how to meditate. I'm excited and eager about this and am so grateful for her gently pushing me towards this form of self discovery through this means. I got the rest of my ordered meds and supplies early this afternoon and will organize and pack them tonight. I will also finish packing my clothes leaving only snacks to be gathered tomorrow. Then sometime Wednesday morning it's off we go. It's about an 8 hour drive to get to Ottawa but soon, real soon I'll be back in my home town and seeing family and friends. Attending Graduations and dinners and ZIP Lining. So much to look forward to. Since I won't have a scooter to get around I mustn't forget my Cane as I know I'll probably need it. Yuk, but safety I know has to come first and foremost. I have it out and prominently displayed so I won't forget it. Well, it's time to get my act together. Time to pack and organize....I am so grateful to everyone who has helped me plan this trip, get me to Ottawa, housing me while there and everything. I can not do a trip like this without all this willing help from so many. I know I am a very lucky person and am so thankful for the friendships that I have because without all these wonderful people in my life I would simply have nothing and I know I have everything I need in my life today. YIPPEE !!!