I slept so peacefully last night once I remembered to take my sleeping pill. I had forgotten to take it at the normal time as I was totally preoccupied with something else. At 53 I'm finally learning to do something for myself that I was never, ever successful with. You see, I'm finally learning how to masterbate. I finally am comfortable within my own body to allow myself this single pleasure. You see, I am one of those women who has never had an orgasm but has dearly wanted the experience all of my adult life. Well, I've yet to achieve my ultimate goal but last night I know I was close, so very close. Having never experienced such bliss I have no clue as to what to expect but last night my body was telling me that I was close and maybe had even achieved orgasm. I had worked myself into such a frenzy with the stimulation I was achieving that if not an actual orgasm it was the most intense buildup I've ever experienced in my life. For me, it was a marathon experience of over 45 minutes of intense pleasure. I'm sure my upstairs neighbor had to have heard my loud and very boisterous sounds that I could neither control nor wanted to stifle even if I had wanted to, which I definitely did not! It took me a little while to calm my body down before exhaustion allowed me to sleep and sleep soundly and peacefully which I did. All I can say now is WOW and I can't wait to take myself there again and soon. I like this new me emerging me. I can't wait for a powerful explosion from within my body. But I have patience now and I know one day soon it will happen for me. As I type this my thoughts are back with last nights experience and I have a silly, happy grin plastered across my face.
As for today I had an appointment up at the Hospital before my volunteer shift. So with the gorgeous day and no humidity I took off on my scooter, headphones on with wonderful music to enjoy the ride. I headed to where I had to be and promptly was taken in to have my annual Mammogram. I hate having to stand there, half naked and get my boobs squashed between two highly pressured plates. But since turning 50 I want to ensure my breasts don't develop anything to worry about. So I ensure to fallow all the things that a 53 yr old woman must follow. After that I headed down to Am Care to start my volunteer shift. Today was quite busy for the first couple of hours with two clinics happening and regular Doctor appointments as well. I finished and headed home at 3. So here I am home with nothing happening not only for the weekend but also nothing scheduled for the next 10 days or so. Pretty boring time ahead but I'm sure I'll find something, anything to do to get out and stay out of my Apartment before going nuts....
I'm so grateful for the perfect summer day that was today and to the people I meet, young and old, during my shift at the Hospital.
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