A great and wonderful session with my councillor today. I've had an extra spring in my step because I am finally listening and really hearing all that we talk about. I'm getting it, I'm finally getting what I need to help me keep moving forward. Yes bad days will happen but bad days happen to everyone, not just me. I told Margo that of all the councillors I have had over the many years, she is the very first person that gets me and had reached me in such a profound way that I know and feel in my soul that I'm going to walk away from her someday soon but know also that I will be safe with what's I've learned and put into practice these many convictions that she has helped me to establish and love within myself.
I'm looking forward to seeing family tomorrow as we get together at my brothers home for an afternoon of laughs and fun. They are coming over to my place before noon to see where I live and to talk about where I'm at and just family kind of stuff. I'm excited with the anticipation of having people coming to my home as it certainly doesn't happen very often.
I am really making great strides with my Meditations and learning so much about all kinds of meditations that are out there. Slowly I'll find what fits me and my needs. Of this my confidence is ever growing. I was really tense and was feeling just a lot of pressures before dinner so found yet another relatively short meditation (10 mins or so) that really just calmed me somewhat and made me feel relaxed and re-energized. I'm loving this new practice and really want to delve into it and achieve much deeper relaxation and calmness within my soul. My friend answered my gentle nudge of last night regarding the CD that contains her meditations that she's told me so much about. She as yet has not had time to make a copy and mail it to me but she assures me she hasn't forgotten and will soon find the time to do this. I can't wait as I am really anxious to try it and see where I can go with it.
I am just very happy with where my life is today and the commitments I'm making to myself to keep this journey alive and fruitful. I'm patting myself upon my back with the progress and my Councillor also really reassured me that over the last six months she very much noticed the progress. Reasurence of the nature goes such a long way in helping me to believe and have strengthening faith in myself. I see this in me as well which is huge for me !!
So I'm sitting around tonight, alone in my apartment but I am far, so far, away from feeling lonely or sorry for myself. Spiritual growth, a councillor I trust and am learning from, confidence in what I'm doing are caring me a far way these days. For this, I am sooooo grateful and blessed. I am looking forward finally to my future and most importantly I believe it is all so achievable for me.......
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