Aug.24/13 So much I've not written about

I've started this blog twice today and got a lot written down both times. BUT I somehow managed to delete both attempts. Somehow I'm starting to think that maybe I should just leave well enough alone. Maybe I should just move on and not keep dwelling on this past week. So with that I think that is what I'm going to do. Suffice it to say that a lot of discussions with Kris about her girlfriend and certainly some angry talks but we managed to come through it with relative sanity and our friendship in tact which I was very afraid of losing because of what I had to finally say. I spoke my truth by telling Kris that I don't like nor do I trust Debbie to not hurt Kris or her son, I accepted finally that yes kris does lover her and she Kris. It is for her to decide how she wishes to live her life and for me to deal with these issues and take ownership of my beliefs and to no longer try to enforce Kris to accept or see my beliefs as her own. We've have spoken since several times and I am determined to try and keep the conversations light and joyful. I will try not to talk so much about my stress like I have so much in the past.

I had a good session with my therapist last Thursday and we have agreed to 4 more sessions but that's it. I received the manual she recommended I purchase that will be used for the year long group session she's signed me up for and hope to start sometime in the new year. I'm looking forward to reading through it slowly and thoroughly during this very long waiting period. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) which is what I know now that I've suffered from my entire life.

Dis a couple of volunteer sessions up at the Hospital this past week as well. I'm glad to be back and working a little more. I need to get out of the Apartment more and this is the right step in the that direction.

My kids are all doing well and have talked with them all a fair amount during the week. I've also been a lot lately as well finishing two lesbian themed novels this week and anticipating starting another one tonight.

That's a very thin description of what been happening since the 22. I am looking forward to CSL service tomorrow morning and picking up my meditating as I've slowed that right down again to almost nil. I am grateful for an awful lot of things and people who've passed in and out of my life this past week and look forward to what the Universe has in store for me to experience and learn tomorrow