My email must have been read that I had sent last night to Kris or maybe it was the message that I left on her phone. Whatever she read or heard there was a brief message from her on FB this morning. Of course she had a extremely busy week as I knew but she just wasn't on FB as she just needed time away from everything which I also expected. However, she said that it had nothing to do with me but about her wanting peace and alone time with her and her son. I get that totally but when I hear nothing my mind goes into warp speed overdrive. My imagination takes control. I use to get mad, then angry, then I say and do things that I always regret. I am so encouraged and very proud of myself because I did not do all those things this time. Not that I didn't want to and came very close to getting into that vicious vortex but I didn't. All things I'm beginning to get proper control over these emotional swings with the work I've done with Margo. I will be getting even better control as I progress with the Group Therapy. I know I've a very long and difficult journey ahead but at least I'm on the right path.
I had to laugh at myself as I inadvertently unfriended Kris last night while discarding some friends that no longer communicate with me. After all the promises I had made to Kris that I would never do this to her again low and behold I did it by mistake and certainly not on purpose. I sent her the msg that I didn't do it on purpose but since she doesn't seem to want to use FB anymore it really doesn't matter anyways. I might talk with her next week or later but I'm really good about this and am quite pleased how things actually turned out.
From here on out it'll be a very quiet housebound weekend. The weather forecast is not great with rain all day tomorrow and maybe sun but very cold on Sunday. I have lots to read and really do need to make sure I have lots of rest before Monday mornings early volunteering and the transit meeting in the afternoon.
I'm grateful that Kris to the few minutes to put my mind at rest and am grateful for an afternoon of volunteering.
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