Today I'm house bound. Although the temperature is respectable for this time of year, it's pouring buckets and will rain though out the day and evening. Sad for all the little kiddies hoping to go out and trick-or-Treating. I'm loving all the postings on FB of kids & adults alike dressed up so incredibly spooky. I remembering the many years and all the horrible and good nights taking my kids out. And of course their excitement leading up to the special night for them. It was a real mixture of fun and frustration for their Dad and I during those years, so long ago now.
A quiet day and night for this house bound lady. Oh well, I'll just do the usual and watch TV until it's time to go to bed and Read. I really regret that I just can't read during the day like I use too. At least by reading only at night my books last a lot longer which is good. Only have work tomorrow afternoon at the hospital and nothing until Monday morning.
I'm pissed. Not angry or wanting to lash out like I use to. Just pissed off. Kris is acting like a kid by not answering me nor giving the respect that I deserve. Maybe she's just doing her thing of trying to distance herself from me which if she took a minute to FB me and tell me that I'd be more than fine with it. Maybe her therapist, pranic healer, friends has suggested she do it this way I don't know. Again that would be just fine with me also. If this is what's going on, and I'm only guessing because she hasn't bothered to tell me, I'd happily unfriend her but I promised her that I would not do that again and I'm honouring my commitment as promised. I am only asking her to tell me what she wants. Nothing more, nothing less |I tried to call her but she doesn't take my calls. Didn't bother to leave a msg because she won't get back to me. I love her friendship but I also know that she can no longer handle me even though I've been trying very hard, and I've felt quite successfully, nto implement all that I`ve learned and am learning to be a better person. I know this takes time but I know I am trying very hard and am also very determined to succeed with her as well as with every other soul I connect with. I`ll wait until next week when she`s returned from RI to decide what I`ll need to do to protect myself from something that is becoming more toxic to me. I need to put myself and my needs first and foremost. That is very much of what I`m trying to do with my life now
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