Jeez, I woke up at 3:30am this morning. Didn't realize the time until I had my feet on the floor and turned on the light. I printed off a copy of things I want to ensure I talk about with Kris around Noon or so so I won't forget when we Skype. I know I'll be so delighted talking with her that I'll forget stuff. I am prepared now which is a good thing.
I spent some time reading over yesterdays notes from Therapy and just a cursory glance at the homework. I will read it again and do the homework this weekend as I know I will have plenty of time to fully concentrate. There's nothing else happening so I will turn everything off and fully direct my thoughts, feelings and emotions to the work I need to do and complete.
Going over yesterday's session reminded me that I've also committed myself to starting back with my meditating. I was a little worried if I could do this with total commitment and abandon. So this morning I decided to listen to one of the CD's Kris sent to me. I had not yet listened to this and I LOVED IT. A directed meditation with the 4 Arch Angels and it was so fantastic and took me to a very peaceful loving place. I was so totally enveloped by the words, the music and feeling the light and warmth surrounding me. I just finished and although feeling somewhat drained of energy I have feelings of peace and joy and love. AWESOME!!!
Within minutes of finishing my meditation the I checked FB and Kris was available to Skype. It was a little awkward at first but very quickly turned into a wonderful and at times deep conversation. We caught up on each others lives and trials and tribulations. I asked her for her perspective an what and how she felt with all the abuse and bombardments from me. She thanked me for asking for her opinions and how she felt during those times. It got kinda pretty deep but I think it was good for both of us. We talked about so very much over a 2.5hr time period. We'll contact each other in a couple of weeks or more but I'm good with that and so is she. I'm feeling that we could finally end up having a proper and normal friendship. I sure hope so. I told her all about my therapy group and what my expectations were wrt it. Told her I'm excited and so ready to do all the needed work to accomplish the ultimate goal of living a live that is comfortable and happy.
It's sunny and slightly above freezing so I just might take my Scooter to the Coffee/Chat downtown. This way I'll get to the bank and pick up a few groceries and cash for the Toe Lady ($25) which is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon.
I left early on my scooter so I could get several errands done before the coffee/chat time. By being able to do this I save money, got bus tickets, got cigarettes and went to the bank to lessen the load on My brother tomorrow when we meet as there are other things we need to cover and he won't have too much time to spare with me. Although I froze my face off I was dressed warm enough so it was tolerable and I'm glad I did it. I got home around 6pm so am in now until my appointment downtown at 1pm tomorrow. I'm hoping to either Skype with Kelsey tonight sometime or talk with her on the phone. I really want to tell her about my therapy yesterday and how pumped I am about it all.
I'm so grateful for so many things today. First and foremost for the Skype session with Kris as well as the weather being such as it was that I was able to get out and do things under my own initiative. I grateful for feeling well and so very happy with where my life is and is headed. Thank you God for gently guiding in my journey and seeing me through all that I've gone through and am now feeling the fruits of this journey. Also, I am grateful for the meditation I did today and choosing the the cd I chose. It was so awesome and beautiful that I am assured that I am finally back on the path I started so long ago and gave up on for so long now. I am grateful for my life today and will keep striving to improve it and give back to any and all that need or want it from me.
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