Dec.02/13 A weekend of Ups and Downs

hit bad old behaviour feelings yesterday
A wonderful hockey game
Wonderful saturday out and about town on scooter
Talks with Kris and skype last nigth
    - some revelations very deep - trying to remember them
need to bring up in group tomorrow something I talked with Kris last night  I'm blocked this morning. I know it's deep but can't fully remember what   SHIT

Skyping with Kris later today and must remember to ask her if she remembers

A really good volunteer time this morning. Even though I was late I got right down to what I there for. Lots of chit chat and laughing which I really enjoyed. Luckily I was reminded that I had to get my TB test checked whan another person said she had to get her test started. TB test was clean so I don't have anything to worry about as I had expected.

My brain is all over the place this morning. So many thoughts about so much stuff. I have to put stuff that I've Learned into active play and just keep moving forward. I'm still bothered by my experiences of yesterday.
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Thanks Deana. I had no idea it was going to take this long. I've been doing a lot of research on the words I'm working with. Just posted one of the findings on Planting the Seeds...I look forward to sharing the finished project with you. Your revelation was when we were talking about meditation and I was explaining that it's not perfect and the goal is not to totally rid yourselves of distracting thoughts but to get the space between them wider and wider. You had an aha that you were trying to make it perfect so therefore were avoiding it.
I'll keep you posted on my progress and will get pics to you later. On the computer now and pics are on my phone. Thx for CSL email. I'll check it out later.

I wasn't upset that Kris had to cancel our skyped talk this afternoon. I sort of expected that something would come up for her. Maybe tonight but again I don't think it will happen. She has a meeting and has a project to complete for tomorrows CSL course she's on. If we talk great, if not another time will happen.

Now that I know what I want to talk about tomorrow I'm really much more calm. I'll will look over and reread my homework and class notes from last Tuesday's group later tonight sometime.

I've got my Xmas stuff out but not really wanting to do to much about putting the stuff up or around. Just have it piled on a table. However the lights look nice around my Living room window. I am really happy that I finally got something to put up this year even though no one will be over to see my stuff. It is what it is and it does please me. Last year I was having difficulties about Kris and put it all away before Christmas even came. By getting it out and up this year is a good reminder for me to remember how far I've really come over this past year.

I am grateful for the good productive time I had volunteering this morning. I am very grateful that I did not get upset when Kris cancelled our Skype. Another wonderful reminder. I love my life these days and am looking forward to what tomorrow put in my path and what I will learn.