Woke up about 6am to start a day with anticipation and happy thoughts Weather was going to be warm enough today so decided to take my scooter to the hospital and then go to Walmart to pick up some Xmas things for the Kids and a few groceries. I still have a few things to get but that can wait until next week when I have some more funds.
Had a quick FB chat with Quin early this afternoon and he seems to be doing OK. A few quick msg's with/from Kelsey and she appears to be busy but good and Tobie sent me another paper so I could read it later today. Quin has his first exam this coming Saturday so I asked him how he was feeling about it. He indicated that he felt he would be prepared and ready for it.
I will be attending a little Christmas gathering on the 17th with the Housing Committee and some City Officials with a little brief meeting after the gathering. Confirmed that Sharri rec'd my application to be considered for a position on the board. I may or may not be appointed by the City Council and will wait until I hear something. Either way I will be fine with whatever comes. If I don't get it I'll be happy that I've tried and if I do I will have a lot of reading to prepare myself as best I can.
I completed putting up a few decorations and put the new string of lights on my favouritPe potted plant. My living room looks and feels warm and cozy and I'm please with what I've done. I'm in a much better place this year than last years pain and disaster with Kris. This time last year I was having suicidal ideology. A very scary time. However, this year is so so different. Last years situation actually got me to the Crisis Centre at the hospital and eventually to Margo. My spritual quest is really now following on a path that I'm loving with watching the CSL services. After many months of these two things I am finally able to place Kris in the place our friendship could be and have absolutely no desire to fall back into my destructive ways. A year of Counseling with Margo has brought me to being in Group therapy once a week for the next 12 months and I have discovered answers to why I acted the way I did over the many years of My life (BPD).
I am happy and full of gratitude. I am so much more observant of all the miracles that surround me daily. I've become much more involve in making the changes that I need to ensure my life is busy and meaningful and I've made some new friends along the way. No life is ever perfect but I learning to balance the imperfect with the perfect to achieve a much more balanced existence. For all of the miracles I am eternally grateful. For all the individuals who've stuck with me throughout everything I will never ever be able to thank them enough. But by keeping on the path and journey and continue to better myself I know that will be all the thank yous I could ever give anyone.
Life is good and has wonderful prospects for getting better and better. I love it!
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