Dec.20/13 A fairly crappy day

Well today wasn't as fun or interesting as I thought it migth be. No peanut butter cookies which I love and live on anywhere in this bloody city.I'm really depressed by that. Went to volunteer only to find out there were on 4 patients this afternoon but couldn't leave because I thought the bus was coming to get me at 3pm. Well there was yet again a total fuck-up with the bus. They said they didn't have a pickup scheduled for me. Too many times this has happened and I'm getting really pissed off with the transit system in the town. At least I had some money to take a cab home today and not like yesturday. Got home finally and chatted alot with both carm and Kris on and off all evening. Other than that nothing else now for the next 2 full weeks which does upset me. I have nothing but the 4 walls and the TV to look at during this time. I'm also struggling with alot of bad memories of Christmases past but I am OK and not in any danger of suicidal thinking and for that I'm very grateful for. So another night of reading and then sleep with hopes of not waking up too early tomorrow.