Aug.08/14 Catching up

Friday August 06/14   Really Nice Day

Rocky is really good today and got his lisence, collar, leash (too small must exchange for bigger one), several neat toys we can play together with and a better brush for grooming purposes. He is really settling down and comfortable. Took a bit of persusion holding him down to get the collar on. I don't think he's ever had one but don't know this for sure.

I picked up a few groceries while at Walmart getting the cat stuff I needed. The weather is super today and really enjoyed my scooter ride.  Hopefully I'll manage to get Rocky out and see how he fares. I know it will be risky in case he tries to get away but am quite confident I'll be able to manage it. Sure hope I do.

There is nothing else on for me today so will just keep Rocky company and watch the boring boob tube as usual. Actually nothing really on this weekend coming but at least I have volunteering tomorrow afternoon up at the hospital. Probably won't be busy there as so many are on holidays and most clinics have been cancelled. Just have to wait and see.

There is so much that I'm grateful for today. I'm grateful to have such a wonderful companion in Rocky. I have truely been blessed. I am grateful for all the really nice citizens who went out of their way to help me when I drop things or crash into things. I way holding way to  many things in my hand/arm that I couldn't make a turn in another isle at Walmart and hit a large metel display stand and really broke the front floor panel covering the front wheels. Several large pieces broke right off and put a very large crack on the left side. Thankfully I didn't breat the headlight and signal lite. I'm not too too upset because I know sometime in the near future (maybe in the Fall) I will be replacing both floor panels as they are really a mess. My depth perceptions sometimes cause me to hit things but often it's just plain stupidity and an speed that causes makes me a little out of control. I'm always too much in a hurry to be as causious as I should be.

Kris finally ended our friendship a week ago so have not communicated with her nor sent any msg's, emails or Skype notes. I was sad at first but deep within me I knew this was the only way to move on. I made her do it but thought she would at least talk to me one on one and say it to my face but she didn't. She sent me a 4 sentence blurb saying she didn't want to maintain our friendship any more. It was totally my fault that brought this about but maybe I might have written the awful things I did while subconciously wanting her to make the break. I have attempted to make several breaks over the last year but always would crawl back and profoundly appologized begging forgiveness. The time it really went way to far and was crewl in how I said things to her. But it's what I did and once the words are  out there, I had to take ownership of what I did knowing that I would also have to accept the consequences as well. I'm kind of proud of myself that I am actually OK with this. I haven't cryed nor felt any depresive or suicidal thoughts at all. Yes I have had moments of saddness but I've learned how to get out them using 'wise mind' techniques that Group and Margo have worked so hard on teaching all of us in Group.

All in all, I'm doing well once Rocky returned home to me after a 4 day/night adventure in the woods. He got out and ran straight into the forest beside me. Now that made me cry alot over the 4 days. I was terrified he would get hurt (no front claws) or so lost because he had never been outside and had been here with me for only a week. I left food out for him and knew it was being eaten but by just which cat, there are many Cats in the area who roam outside all night long). But it turned out it was my Rocky because I was abruptly woken by 2 Cats just outside my window in the most loud and agressive Cat Fight. One was Rocky and I was able to coax him with lots of treats back into my home. I couldn't believe it but 'The Cat Came Back) as the old Fred Pennar song goes. I am ecstatically happy about this and will do everything I can to train myself to always check to see where Rocky is situated in the Apartment before opening the door to go out.