Mom and Dad came to visit me this afternoon. I was so nice to have them here. Rocky got to meet his grandparents and he took a real liking to Mom. Cats know who love them and who doesn't. She stayed away from Dad. He tolerated cats when we were young but had no time nor interest in them. We chatted for about an hour then they cabbed back home. I was so glad my place was really quite clean and nice today and I didn't have to rush around cleaning it up. Had a nice quiet morning here with Rocky and crashed after mom let for a couple of hours. A really nice day for me.
I am struggling with urges to send a msg to Kris but they are only fleeting and I am letting them go as they come. I will however send her an email once Jack is back in school towards the end of August as I will always be concerned how her health is regarding her pain. But that is all I will ask of her and nothing else. It is good removing her from my life and I know this to my core. I have to stay diligent to my own convictions and not beg her to come back into my life. I also know that she is most likely much better off herself letting me go as well. Both of us must move forward in our own lives and learn from our experiences while sharing together. So much was good but it was also not good at all many times. Our paths were crossed for many reasons. We both learned so much from each other and that will never ever change for me. However I do think that we, mainly me, tried so hard for way to long in keeping this distant friendship going. I do believe it was the universes interaction to make me do what I did to end it finally. I had tried many times over the length of our connection but always failed by crawling and begging her forgiveness. What I did this last time forced Kris's hand in finally saying she did not want any contact with me. I am OK with how things finally worked out and know deep in my heart and soul and accept the Universes reasons for making me see and understand this.
Suzy-Q did not get a renewal of the only drug that has proven to help with her horrible leg pain yesterday. It was very difficult to accept this but today she seemed to be working very hard to accept it & move onward as best she can until her surgeon returns in September. Hopefully he will get her surgery schedule as soon as possible to see if a knew knee replacement resolves all her problems and her pain.
Nothing on for this evening other than cleaning out Rocky's litter box, playing with him and watching the boring boob tube. But I am happy and peaceful alone here with my Rocky. I do look forward to my Spiritual nourishment tomorrow morning by watching CSL Toronto over the net. I will send a copy to Sue but not Kris. If she wants it she knows how to get access to it or without her son at home she'll more than likely go to her own service.
I have a lot to be grateful for today. My parents for coming to visit, my kids for chatting with me, my Cat for being the most wonderful affectionate cat ever and for the good week I had once Rocky came home to me.
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