Well yesterday was a good day for me. Attended very long 3hr disability Advisory meeting yesterday afternoon. Reviewed and made corrections where necessary to Final document being submitted to the Province for the new Transit committee encompassing all AODA requirements to move onto the next more critical stages of documenting all processes and procedures for all aspects of the Transportation both main line busses and Disability busses and services for the next bunch of years. This is going to be never ending for the City and it's subcommittees as the years go by and with new municipal and provincial governments changing every couple of years requirements will always be changing as well. I informed this group that I will be moving early Spring or sooner from this City and will no put in a request for the next 3 year term. So I'll be off the committee by the end of January but will attend all meetings as a silent observer until the actual move. I have so much time and energies invested in what this group has done for so many that I just can't end some kind of involvement until I absolutely have to.
I didn't have to go to the Council Meeting last night at City Hall but did watch it all on TV. The votes was finally taken to order the 6 new busses ASAP with hopes of their arrival for service in 6 months time. This is great and will maybe still here when they arrive. I hope I will be. The contract with First Student Busses has been addressed with the City Lawyer and both Parties can walk away from the Contract with 8 month notice. Other discrepancies within the Contract to ensure First Choice does what they have claimed the will do within the contract from now on. They have not done so even though they have repeatedly stopped saying they have. Hope they hold to this and things begin to improve between The Council, The City and the residence who have continually been complaining from the moment this company to over,.
It's getting closer (2 months) to the Elections and nearing the deadline for candidate announcements. Many new names are coming out to run for Council so as it gets closer things will begin heating up. I look forward to the all candidates meeting to actually hear what everyone has to say and to begin actively campaigning for the mayor I support and want in a few of the old councillors that have been honest and forward with their votes and not so obviously self-serving and refusing without major complaints from the citizens they represent. Again, we'll see what actually happens when all is said and done eh.
Great group therapy this morning. Took a lot away with me after it was over. However, My sugars really crashed hard and fast (2.1) and had to leave and seek help as I had forgotten everything I needed to bring it up. After a bad crash like that I am left exhausted and drain. Basically I was done for the day after that and come hope and dosed for the rest of the day. No appetite so didn't eat until around 8pm. Not good to keep doing this and need to start trying other foods and fruits real soon. That will be very hard for me to force myself to do this because I'm stubborn, have no real interest in reacting and struggle against change, any change. Nothing new about me but I know if I keep these behaviors up I will suffer severely, eventually. Something to work on for when I head home.
I have a lot of gratitude this evening for many things and people. Had a great discussion with Janis, issued and a Facebook msg to Chris asking if she has begun to at least forgiven me or not. I hope she responds because if she hasn't then I will have to work harder at ending my attempts to communicate with her. I have done so much better at keeping my distance but I know If she doesn't choose to respond to me then I must try harder at not sending any form of communication and deal with that myself, alone and live through the sadness. It is a lot better though but not good enough and I know I have to stop and stay stopped. This will be on my mind every time a wave passes through me to reach out to distract myself t let those emotions pass and keep moving forward. I have to begin to trust myself that this is something I CAN DO and WILL Do once and for all, forever
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