My reality living with Diabetes

I had started writing earlier this afternoon of my joys, my wonderful feelings, my excitement over the good things that are happening to me. I was really quite proud of myself and my my thoughts but then it began. My sugar level began to crashed. Of course one doesn't realize what's happening util it's very late and well into affecting ones body, emotions, brain activity. I'm use to this sort of. I've had the affliction for well over a decade but It always causes me anxietyw, panic, fear, helplessness, loss of control everything! My sugars crashed tonight into the mid two's which is a very dangerous level. Once I finally realize the is process that must be followed to gegt out of the danger zone. Easy enough right. Yes but also NO. For me I become quite defient, and often don't act as fast as I should.
Deana shut up.Quit belly aching about this and get back on track...The track being losing my thoughts that I'd written before all this started. I'm pissed because I was really into it and what I was saying to myself. Bottom line deana is that your day was really great. You stood your ground and conveyed your thoughts and ,esires to Glen  and Joanne (diabetic nurse/educator). You actually made them understand that I'm happy, I'm healthy, that I want to be treated as any other 53yr old woman, sister, daugher. I also let my brother read my blog entries. I need him to understand some of the reasons as to why I did some of the things I've done in my past. But more importantly I need him really see and accept that although I can get sick angain I can't live my life in anticipation of what horrible things could happen. I've accepted these possible or potential realities - it's more that I need them to accept that I am OK with this, that I need to have others close to me treat me as thought nothing is or could go wrong. I know it's very very hard on them but I need to live as normal a life as I can and really I am getting more normal each and every day.  Deana you're rambling again. Tomorrow write about the other 2 issues that are circulating in and around your mind. Allow the great feelings of earlier to wash over me. Rejoice in these feelings. Keep proud, Keep focused. Just keep on keeping. Nothing can hurt me if my attitude keeps on the possitive side.....Love thy self deana.....rejoice ...