Shit just keeps on happinin

It's thursday and don't remember the last blog I wrote. The rollercoaster is madly flying and at times just about flinging me out of the car. Wonderful love just keeps building within but also deep deep discussions revolving aroud should we should we not continue this very non tradional love. I for one don't want it to ever stop. I want to actually meet each other face to face. I want to touch her everywhere and kiss her deeply. I want to make incredible mad physical love to her. I want us both to orgasm together...I want her every which way I can have her. She, I know is falling and falling deeper in love with me. We talk via phone quite often and would much more if it weren't for the cost. She has become so much more expressive in her wants and needs from me.My dreams are all about her and what we do for each other and so are hers. But there are things still holding her back  from total complete surender to me. Long ago I so surrendered I scared her with my intensity. She is very soon starting her divorce and separation. They will be facing all the financial issues associated with divorce. Her family still have to be told of her separation and of her lesbianism....God so so much but our closeness has become incrdible. We wake each day wanting to connect and keep connecting all day long. We end our days with discussion and talk of everything. This bond is growing so fast and so wonderfully deep. She send the most funny and loving Birthday giftt which alot of thought and preparation went into. I'm going to be hard pressed to reciprocate in kind. But I'll sure try so hard. two of my kids know the depth of it all for me and are very supportive of this relationship. Will not tell my parents or brother until if or when this evolves much further. They just wouldn't understand what I'm doing but I do and am very OK with it. I'm just so bloody happy and excited getting up each morning and am sad when we have to say goodnight to each other. I've cried with her, on many occasions over many different things and have also so totally rejoiced with her. I never thought I would want another person as much as I want her. But it is truely is her and her alone that fills my soul with such happiness and wonder.....So anxiously waiting to connect again soon to hear all about her morning......I love you sweetie, I so do !!!