So much has and is happening to me

OMG I don't know where or how to begin with everything that been happening to and around me over the last week or so. It's weird, massive beyond what I've ever known. Is been scary but fascinating, wierd but wild, encredible and surreal....I've run out of adjectives to describle how I feel today. I've learned what love is. What it should be. I've learned to speak my most inner deepest wildest and scariest thoughts. I've leaarned how to play with fantasies with another. How to be free floating with ideas and beliefs. I can't think straight I'm so overloaded and spinning. I've been experiencing with and through a friend I've never seen or phsically met. My connection to her has become addictive and we are both spiralling with this. We are both experiencing so much. So many emotions. We are feeding on each other and want this to continue on and on. But today we realized that this might be dangerous for one or both of us. It's unreal, it's fantasy or wishful desires or loneliness searching for companionship. We never ever could have seen so many months ago that this was going to be part of this journey. There has been a rebirthing of a lost sole, her. A maturing of an inexperienced sole,me and a sharing of such manitude that neither of us could ever ever have been imagined. The fulfiling of each others  many needs in a way that has and continues to be profound. One, me, has fallen completely and totally in love in a very profound way. I have found every single quality within her that I'd always had imagined and have never ever found. She on the other hand has found the experiences of the other  to help guide her and get her to where she has realized she wants and so desperately needs to be. Both has found a friendship like no other before. Both are at different
stages of middle age and wanting and needing this kind of friendship....there's more, much much more, to this saga...I can't talk it out anymore right now....I have to give myself more thinking and feeling time....I will return to this, I need to return to this,,,I need to understand what's been happening and what is going to happen....OMG I've been in many many states of mind and confusion in my past but never one as intense and revealing as this is one has been....please stay tuned as I journey through this wild and wonderful journey with my friend