Happy Valentines Day

I woke up this morming with a wonderfully happy smile and in a very happy mood. Had a very wild discussion with Kris last night. I had to speak to her about were my mind went yesterday and to explain why I had sent her some music videos. I knew she would read my blog eventually so I asked her to read it before we talked. She did and indicated that she too was feeling the same as I. Oh God, I thought, here we go again. Have I again taken a seat on that rollercoaster ride. NO I have not by choice. I don't want to do things the way I had before. That way only caused grief and pain when it should not have. We really talked about how we were going to proceed. We both are going to make our main focus on our own situations and issues. That is our priority without question. We will talk when we are able and we will not talk late into the night/early morming like we had. That was way to hard on both of us. I will not neglect my health nor my responsibilites and she will continue on her difficult journey of separating from her spouce and finding meaningful employment for herself. If we want to continue within this loving relationship as it stands now, today we must not waver from our committment to each other. I even made sure we virtually did the old handshake deal for a laugh but not as a joke either. This is why I awoke in such a light hearted happy mood. This mood has only gotten better and deeper as this day is progressing. What a fantastic Valentines gift. No others have been so powerful....I LOVE and so totally RESPECT  my dear valentine. I say these words without any hesitation or secrecy.....Have a great day and enjoy as much as you can deana, you deserve to be happy and joyful.....