Spent pretty much all day conversing with Kris. Somewhere I had mentioned to her that I will always have very loving feelings for her, that that will never change for me. But I also told her again as I have before that her friendship, continued friendship, is so much more important to me. If things were different I would certainly try to persue her in every which way I could and hope that when actually meeting face to face she would want the same with me. But I know I'm dreaming a pipe dream and never ever will this happen anyways. But just on some occasions or within certain situations that we find ourselves dissussing I get hit upside the head with such longing and desire. It usually doesn't take me long to put the feelings behind me but boy are they fierce and strong like they ended up being today. Oh well. I know she listens to the words in music and I was getting into listening to an artist that I love and sent her a couple of songs.One of those songs depict a love I truely hope to find someday, both kris and I, we both so deserve to experience such love and pleasure and we both will in our own ways find that and be so happy for each other when it does happen to one or other of us. I guess I'm still feeling some of the effects of yesterdays deep thoughts from the Mental Health day things I watched and seem to need to be still caught up with this whole thing. Tomorrow is another day and will take whatever come my way. Chin up deana and keep on the path you need to be on.....
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