I miss this form of expressing myself to myself

I had stopped writing in this format a few weeks ago. I stopped because it became only about my interractions with a person that I had come to know and fell in love with. I had taken some liberties with someone elses privacy that I should never ever have done. I've tried to write in different venues but nothing as simple and user friendly as this is could serve me as well. So her I am beginning again to use this as the daily journal I'd originally intented. So here goes ....

I have gotten back to the basics as best I can and have been having alot of fun with a skype friend lately. I have gotten my sense of humour and playfulness back in full swing and am laughing so much it almost at times begins to hurt. But in a good way as my friend always says. My aches and pains have really lessened and I am sleeping so much better. Still have another specialist appointment coming up but don't really want to go to it. The weather is slowly getting better so I've  been able to get out on my scooter alot more and that really makes me happy as well. I should be going to visit my parents but for some reason just don't want to do that. I know I have to soon and don't quite understand why I'm being so hesitant. Soon, very soon I'll make good on this. I'm heading back to Ottawa in the middle of June for a couple of weeks to attend 2 graduation ceremonies. My Oldest is graduating from University and my youngest from Highschool. The other one was to graduate from  her University as well this year but decided to take one more year so we get another year before we all travel to St. Catharines Brock U. I'm really looking so forward to seeing my kids since its been a year since I saw 2 of the kids. I also would like to see my ex husband as well since we have always remained friends. It will be a really nice time and some really good friends are helping me to get home and to stay with them while in Ottawa. Can't make it to any pride festivals this year which is a real bummer but will once again next year hope to attend Toronto's parade as well as participate in the organization of Owen Sounds. Time will tell if that will come to pass for me. You never know I just may find someone in a romantic way. That would be awsome and am not closing that possibility, at least not like I've done so in the past. Keep your faith in yourself deana and faith in others you might meet. Open your mind and heart to anything that might be interresting or intriquing....I feel good writing to myself again. It's an outlet I need to keep up with. Good things will come to those who keep their faith and ambitions. So dean June just keep on keeping on.....