Apr 26/13 Georgous Day lonely existence

Woke up around 10am today and discovered a beautiful warm wonderful day outside. I was just lounging around when I was reminded of a skype Spiritual learning session that I should have remembered. We agreed to reconnect at in an hour so I could do all the things I need to do when I first wake up. The time went by fast then we reconnected and our discussions began and time just flew by. We are working on identifying the archtypes that I identify most with. Fascinating discussions ensued and many things she was able to explain to me with wonderful clarity were really somewhat like Wow moments. We have scheduled another Skype session in aboutll a weeks time to finalize my archtypes and see how they relate to the chakras and where they relate. I'm really looking for to this and am very appreciative of the help I'm recieving. I am working hard on finally understanding myself in ways that I've never understood before. My life is moving in the forward direction that I always wanted it to but never really understood how to do it. I'm feeling so happy and ezcited in that things I've done in the pastl, behaviourws that I never fully understood as to why I had them, fears I had in myself and caused others to feel around me are finally becoming clearer between my Therapists help and my spiritual journey ... I'm pumped, I really am. I think the most important change I want to make and stick by is the one that attracts friends and keeps friends without my sabotaging the friendship. I hurt so bad when I do this and suffer needlessly. I'm getting closer and closer to finally affecting my behaviours to stop this once and for all. I hope and pray that I succeed with this because I know only to well what will happen if I don't. So I'm going to keep this form of writing because I know it is very helpful to me ss well as keeping me on track and focussed.....Tomorrow is CSL church service in Toronto which I can watch from here at home.....yahoo that my friend found this service for me to watch and listen to the msg's it offers for consideration....No rules, No rituals, No having to conform to someone elses ideals and ideas .... just suggestions and ideas to ponder and decide for myself what I want accept or not....this I like very very much indeed.....