April 28/13 May have lost my best friend

I'm pretty sure this time I've made a move that I don't think I'll be able to take back. I'm pretty sure I've lost my very best friend of just over a year. We've gone through an awful lot in dealing with each others lives and I let her into my life like no other person before as I believe she did with me as well. I got frustrated with her last week and felt that she was no longer able to devote the time to our friendship like I'd become used to and selfishly I wanted that time back. Because I have no friends within the City I live ln I have focused all of my energies onto this one woman. A woman I had come to love and cherish both romantically and within the boundaries of proper friendship. At one point she confessed her love for me which so totally blew me away. We both enjoyed a connection neither of us had had experiences in before that were both thrilling and intimate in a very non conventional way. But that was abruptly ended and I needed to regroup and refocus what was most important and agreed to become just really good friends. Neither of us wanted to lose the friendshlip. Both of us understood the importance of a friendship like this. However, as time passed my deeper feelings for her would come through and cause us both grief and pain. But we talked through these episodes and continued this friendship. As time passed and her life started to become very busy and at times somewhat more caotic I would at times express some of my thoughts and feelings that she didn't have time to or want to discuss. She was driving herself to such exhaustion that I began to worry about her well being. Then she was so busy that she couldn't find the time to discuss with me how we could figure out how to continue with the friendship. I was hurt and upset by this. Obviouslyl I should have been more understanding of her and her situation and should have just agreed her needs. I got upset and said I would not contact her again until she contacted me. Well, it's been over a week and I've heard nothing from her. I, as usual, tried to contact her but nothing. I afraid I won't hear from her although she has always said she never leaves a friend but maybe, just maybe, I've pushed her to her limits of endurance with my behaviours. I've been pretty good but had a bad few moments of deep deep sadness and a sudden rush of tears last night. This only lasted a couple of minutes but It shook me. I'm trying not to bug her and am hoping I'm wrong with these feelings of loss and abandonment but I'm also trying to be strong and upbeat....time will only lead to what will be and it is out of my hands so I'll just have to take whatever happens regardless... My friend has responded to my many pleas to talk. We will skype at the end of the week and discuss what happened and how we will continue to manage our friendship in a way that we don't hurt each other....I'm so glad to get this chancel and to just what can be done to help both of us......stay tuned..... l