May 28, 2013 I`M A FUCKING BULLY

I wrote an awful lot of stuff last night and other nights but it's all BULLSHIT. There is only a sentence or two that I need to express loud and clear to myself. I need to fix what causes me to do this, thought I had but I have only devised other ways to do it, I've hurt people, to justify myself and I've attempted to imprint my thoughts and feeling onto other inocent, kind, caring and loving people.I have to STOP this. Here is what I see today so painfully clearly: I AM A FLUCKING GODAMED SHAMEFUL BULLLY, maybe a fox in sheeps clothing but, none the less, a fucking bully .... I have to correct this and focus on this alone if I want this behaviour to stop and I do want it to stop once and for all!! I will not be blogging for a while. A day, a week or months even until I figure this out, maybe with some help but it is me and me alone that will have to fix me. No one else. I pray, I hope, I beg the Universe and all it's powers to guide me, help show me the way. I need to FIX ME, NO ONE ELSE, JUST ME So with that Goodbye....I will be back sometime but just not right now. THANK YOU KRIS for guiding me to see me ... I will not use this blogg to abuse and blame you as I have so shamefully been doing. I will not use this blog to bully or shame u as I've done so thoroughly and repeatedly....you are a friend of truth, honesty, integrity and love. I have respect for that and respect for you. You are the friend that everyone should be lucky enough to have and to hold onto