May 20/13 Day of both Good & Bad Memories

25 years ago on this Victoria Day Monday My life was altered in the most horrific way. My only sister was in the hospital in the late stages of getting ready to deliver her second child. I was there with her when things went terribly wrong. We were kicked out of her room and later she and her unborn child died. I have never thought of Victoria day without deep thoughts and memories of what happened so long ago now. I think of my sister almost daily but they are happy thoughts and memories of our past together. However, she actually died on May 24th, 1988 which was the Monday holiday back then and my thoughts swirl around the horror that occured in that hospital on that Monday morning. It's gotten better over the years as the saying goes that time heals ones soul but I don't think that you ever totally heal from the death of a loved one. On a happier note I broke all my convictions of staying away from contacting my friend. I am not saddened by doing this. I sent her an email last night as it is her anniversary today and her husband is having surgery as well. I really didn't think I would hear back from her and was so surprised when she replied. I hope she lets me know how things are going. I want to somehow keep contact with her. I don't know how this can be done but hope that maybe we can find a safe way to make it work. All I know is that some how some way I need her friendship. I need the depth of friendship that we had but with boundaries that I won't break. Maybe she would be willing to help me figure this out. Bottom line is everyone should be so lucky to have a friendship like ours was and could be again....Time will tell....All I can say right now, right this moment I want to try and I hope she will want to help as well......