May 6/13 Everything was cancelled today....long day

So I was scheduled to meet with my Spiritual woman today via Facebook but she had to cancel out. We will catch up next week so I'll wait until then. I was also going to get my separate key board set to work on my PC with bluetooth but my brother cancelled out and we'll head there on Thursday instead. So there was nothing much to do today. I charged up my skooter and headed downtown to get some funds from my bank and then dropped into the grocery store to stock up on necessities. Home again and sitting around watching TV. Very very bored. May go out again after dinner to get a couple of hanging plants for my patio but not sure if I really want them since I hardly use the patio since I quit smoking last June. I'll think about what I want to do out there. I talked a bit with my friend late in the day and it sounds like she had a good day. She is finally taking care of herself regarding her decreasing weight. Her pending divorce and new job issues have her under tremendous stress as well as starting up a relationship with another woman. I know what the stress feels like as I left my marriage many years ago with very young children staying within my husbands care. I was too sick to have custody and we both felt it best for our kids to be with their Dad full time. I had total access to my kids when I whenever I could physically have them but that's not to say that there were many many stressful times for me as well as our kids. I cryed practically non stop for many yearsl. I also felt very much like a total failure as a mother and parent. Very painful indeed but things have been so much better over the last several years especially since our youngest is very nearly 18 yrs old. The girls are 21 and 23 and we have a wonderful relationship of which I'm so very grateful for. My Ex and I are good friends and talk often as we are both in our mid 50s now. I am also very grateful to my Husband for the wonderful job of rearing our kids to be such wonderful, well adjusted and nice young adults. I really only get upset these days when I see videos and pictures from when I was so sick and not with them ... I missed alot of their growing up years and that makes me cry when I dwell on it. But that I something that will always cause me some issues and sadness but it is what it is and theres really not alot I can do other then ensure my kids now that I love them deeply and am here if they need me....so all my gratitude goes to them without a doubt.... so until tomorrow, another day has passed me by yet again...