Jun /13 Laid back day so needed

I get so pissed off with myself when I can't do everything I want. But I am enjoying having a rest day today. I'm catching up after a week long whirlwind of wonderful activities. So nice NOT having to deal with dentistry issues for a couple of days. I slept in soundly and late this morning, ate a healthy breakfast and generally took care of myself in kind of a pampering way. Just so relaxing until I needed to change my insulin pump then all hell broke loose around me as I could not find a crucial thing but I survived and managed to get the damned thing inserted into my ever growing fat. I'm carrying a half beach ball for my stomach and I won't even mention the rest of my expanding body...I will never get use to this after so many years of being a skin and bones skeleton due to the illnesses but I'll survive and just bitch occasionally...All 3 of my kids and I were set to go Zip Lining this Thursday but just heard that those plans had to be squashed for reasons beyond every ones control ... So I'm really bummed out now because I would have been the most wonderful time to spend with my kids. So I don't know if I'll get a chance to see all 3 together before I have to leave this beautiful city and head back to my home. Again, I'm really sad but am hopeful we'll find some time together as a family. I sure hope so. Every day here is a grateful day for me. I actually bought a great pair of shoes today. Probably the first pair I've bought other than cheap ones from 'Walmart' in about 15 years. They are so light and wonderful. I can't really afford them but what the hell - you only live once right, so you have to splurge when on holiday at least once and today I did. I have so very much to be grateful for but I'm upset and tears are very close to spilling...I need to see my kids so I sure hope I can see at least my oldest daughter but She's working late tonight....gotta go go before I totally fall to pieces...until tomorrow....keep it together deana....you'll be ok once you find the things you can't find tonight....l