My day yesterday was so very very bad and difficult on me. I was able to go to bed last night and read to calm my brain down. I slept well, many dreams I know I had but really can't remember them with any real clarity. I got up nearly about 9:30 and went through all my many morning musts to get the day on the move. Sugars were fine, cravings were not too bad and watched ms CSL service. Again the service was so wonderful, thought provoking and so right on the nose of what I needed to hear deep within my sole. It enspired me to dress warmly, with hat,gloves,scarf and several layers of clothing including my leather jacket to head out on my scooter to take Mom & Dad some treats that I promised I'd get. Very short but nice visit with them. Didn't stay long as rain is threatening and the clouds were getting darker and darker. Headed home and made it dry but cold. I'm in for the rest of this day/night and am charging up my scooter for tomorrow trip to the hospital and my new volunteer job. I'll have to get up real early as I start at 9am but am really looking forward to something new. I don't think I will talk with Kris today and maybe not for a few days as I have to clear my head of her for awhile. She is so busy anyway and back with her girlfriend again. I'm being bitchy about that as usual and I just don't want to think about the two of them and what they are doing together both physically and socially. It is just to hard on me during this period of intense anquish I've be experiencing. I'll probably fail at this as usual but I'm asking the universe to please help me as I know I need some intervention and guidance for a little while. Not much else to record right now so I'll post these thoughts for now.
I am grateful for Mom and Dad and have asked my Mom to come to my house sometime to watch a CSL service with me. This is important to me, very important to me for her to do this for me. I am also grateful to my daughter for listening last night and telling me to contact her if my cravings get bad and she will try to help me ride them out even though she is so very busy at work today.
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