I awoke this morning after a good sleep. I'm dreaming a lot but having difficulty remembering these dreams.I know they are something my subconscious is trying to make me see but I just can remember enough to get it. It's bothering me because I do believe that the Universe is trying to guide me through the dreams. A friend has even suggested I buy a tape recorder and record them as soon as I wake up either during the nights of first thing in the mornings while they are stiff fresh in my mind. I'm really thinking about doing this but have to caught up some bucks to buy one. I'm asking the Universe to guide me and help me through it.
Krista and I have talked a little this morning and she is now watching the movie that I sent her the other day. This movie has affected on so many different levels and I need to talk to her more about what has affected me so deeply. I also want to be able to tell her what I want, no need, ask her and face her rejection should it come to that. I hope it doesn't since our friendship has grown so much and so deeply for me.
Tobie called and we talked quite a bit about how she's doing being back in school. She loves the class she had this morning and is eager to see where it goes. I'm so happy for her and her plans for the future such as looking for a job as soon as she gets her schooling and times totally figured out. I suggested that when out in her car to just drop in anywhere and everywhere, picking up and filling out applications so that something might come out of it. She promised to keep me updated on this which makes me happy. I so want her to find a job to help her finances but also to fill in all the time she has with such a light course load. She was really very bored last year because of the light course load.
I called my ex this morning to wish him a happy 55th birthday and had a really good chat about a lot of stuff. The worry I had about his loneliness and the leaving of his kids now makes so much more sense to me. He's a very sensitive man and feels his emotions deeply even though he can't and doesn't express them too often. I'm just so happy when he does because I get to see a part of him that is beautiful and touching that I never saw or paid attention to in our lives together. I'm so glad also that my Mom and Day called him to wish him a happy birthday without me asking them too. I know that Paul feels good from those calls knowing that they still care about him as the son-in-law that they lost so long ago.
Nothing on tonight so will read and watch TV and hope to hear from Kris before bed. She got the go ahead to move out from the Judge in her divorce case so will probably be starting that transition soon. She'll check in with me later hopefully to let me know how she's doing which is good and maybe be able to finish the movie so we can discuss it and how it affected me. I really want this to happen soon but I know she is busy with a lot of stress on her plate. Maybe tomorrow I'll know a little more on this
I'm so grateful that I've talked with all my kids and Paul today. I'm very grateful for what the Universe is laying out for me to discover and learn. I grateful for the very nice and peaceful eving outside. I have so very many things and people in my life and am grateful to everyone for staying in my life and helping to guide me along on my journey.
I've friggin done it again. I've screwed up my day again. I thought it was Thursday today and was making plans for tomorrow thinking it was going to be Friday. Kris really had to make me see my error once again after me arguing with her for quite some time. This always brings a giggle from her but not so much me. This is becoming a serious problem for me and I have to figure out some way from continuing before it drives me even more nuts than I already am. So actually there is nothing happening for me tomorrow. I hope the day is a least a nice one so I can get out on my scooter and out of this apartment before that also drives me crazy....Oh well, such is my life !!!!!!!!!!!
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