Woke up to a very crappy day of dampness and cool rainy weather. I'm having trouble shutting down my thoughts and feelings. I'm kind of angry and disappointed but I know I'll pull my self up once I've decided how I'll do that. I'm asking the Universe a lot lately to help me put so much behind me and to somehow guide me to where I'm supposed to be. My faith is strong but these little setbacks when I'm alone and feeling lonely are really hard at times to deal with. I sent a msg to my Ex and we chatted back and forth a bit. I hadn't chatted with him for a while and it was nice to express our mutul loneliness but more important to hear how his work is going. I'm thinking a lot about my Daughter and her boyfriend coming next Friday and am so totally excited about this. I have to list all the things that I need to get done and what I want to make sure we need to discuss while she's here. This should help me a lot. Things like totally cleaning the Apartment, making sure I can pay for their dinner Friday night to ensuring we begin discussions for preparing for my eventual return to Ottawa and her becoming my POA. Whatever comes to mind that need discussing.
I took a chance and scooted to the grocery store for a couple of things. It's still very damp but at least it didn't rain on me. I know I probably won't get out again until Monday but at least the little fresh air I got this afternoon was both very good and refreshing.
I have been trying to gain access to 'Planting the Seeds of Love' FB page to add a couple of things to it but Kris has not been able yet to help me with this. Maybe next week she might be able to figure out why I can't post anything. I'll wait until I hear back from her if she remembers.
Another bug-a-boo happened to me tonight ... I know just enough about my computer and the various applications but not enough to keep myself out of basically screwing everything up. Especially when new applications are introduced. I wish things could just stay the same so I don't lose anything. But that is so unrealistic thinking and wishing. I did finally get everything back to the way I had it and I'm very thankful that I didn't give up in anger or frustration.
Also, just finished a lovely hour long Skype with ML in Ottawa. I do love it when she Skype's me unexpectedly. Have not talked with her since before my last meltdown a few weeks ago so it was nice bringing her up to date with my life and hearing all about what's been happening with her.
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