I'm working with all my Soul to pass the bleakness of the past several days. Very conscientiously and diligently and I think I'm winning this latest battle. I'm happy and smiling and looking forward to getting out to Volunteer today. Nothing of course has changed with the loneliness feelings but they are by no means controlling me as they were. I've Facebooked with Kris and apologized profusely. She's read my blogs. She has accepted my apology yet again and we have talked a little. This does help me to feel better but I so want to succeed with not pestering nor loading her FB page with unnecessary garbage. Yes all stuff I want to share but maybe she doesn't want to be hasseled with it all in her extremely busy life. I wouldn't blame her. I still want and need the Universe to help me and guide me in the right direction with this. I want to succeed and will with this Journey of love and respect.
I wrote to my Uncle Bill in Vancouver finally this morning. I waited until my own mind was settled before I wrote it. I read what I sent to Mom and she was pleased with what I wrote. I talked of all my wonderful memories of Carol from my youth, him and the kids. I also sent him the picture of our family from Thanksgiving so he could see how much the kids have grown and of Mom and Dad looking so happy with us all being with them. I am happy that I did it and hope Bill finds some comfort as well. His kids have left, one back to Europe somewhere, the other to his ship in the the east. He's now totally alone with no friends. I hope he will be ok out there alone.
Now getting ready to head out. It's cold and a bit windy so must dress really warmly but I know the fresh cold air will be good for me. The 'cold' fresh air was good but coming home was pouring, cold and I got very soaked as well. I'm home now but frozen and uncomfortable. Work was good and busy until 2:30 when it got really slow and I couldn't stay awake. A few people have liked me FB page for the LG|BT so I'm really hoping it translates into people or at least one person showing up next Wednesday. My fingers are crossed and I'm asking the Universe to help bring some people to meet with.
Maybe or maybe not I'll hear from Kris later on. It would be nice. There is a parcel for me locked in the parcel box but the key is so rusted from the post office it won't open up for me. Called the post office and kind of lied saying I had to get it since it was a medical thing. I suppose one could say that it is for medicinal purposes. I can't wait to tryout the Toy and listen to all the Meditational CD's. A long wait but so worth it. Kris spent a lot of money to send me this stuff so I will look for something special to send her with all my heartfelt thanks and appreciation!!
Nothing happening here tonight (other than some much needed personal play time) nor for the weekend. But I'm fairly OK with this and will make the best of it.
My gratidude is over abundant for Kris and my family. Received a beautiful picture of Paul and Todd (his dog) which made me smile from ear to ear. Too bad that I don't have a colour printer but black and white will be just fine and look good on my wall of family pictures.
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