I woke up this morning not crying. A friend from Ottawa called and we talk for a short while. Still not crying. I've eliminated some sites from my FB page and again still not crying. I know I had dreams last night telling me things but unfortunately I can't quite remember them in any useable detail so will think on them as the day progresses and just maybe I remember enough to see what I am supposed to learn. Maybe or maybe not. Still the flood gate of tears is still closed. I know this is progress but I also know the tears are not yet ready to leave me alone. Looking forward to my csl service and setting up plans with my daughter later on today. I'm excited about composing a wish list of things I want to accomplished no matter how ridiculous to send to my daughter so we can discuss what we can do together to maybe accomplish some of them together. That does excite me.
An incredible service this morning from CSL Toronto. It was a deeper service than usual but faboulous. It nourished my soul and mind. I know and feel that God wanted me to see this and hear the messages that Jonathan spoke. I will be sending it to Kris if she wants. But I also want to send it to Lynn for her to experience if she so chooses to. I know I will re-watch this service many times more because I was so moved and sprit filled. This will I hope help me get through whatever I've been experiencing and will undoubtedly teach me so much more. Simply WONDERFUL.
Well it is now 4pm and still no tears nor wanting to she tears. I had a little sleep to help pass the time which was good for me. I'm still waiting to hear from my daughter to chat but I'm sure she is busy and will contact me when she gets the time. I'm Ok with that as well. I'm now feeling that I'm climbing out of the bad slump and that I'm going to be OK sooner rather than later. I'm going to post this now but will add to it if there is something I want or need to post. A quiet night is approaching and I'm not too unhappy about that either which is good as well.
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