I was up early and volunteering by 8:30 this morning. Enjoyed myself and was really happy to get out. I'm physically really struggling with exhaustion but getting by. Using my cane pretty much all the time right now but again that's OK. I realized something in that with all the issues I've been dealing with this past couple of weeks is that the fact that I'm also going through menopause which I'm sure is a factor in everything that is going on with me. However, there still isn't any real indication that the period is going to end anytime soon. DRATS.... My big lovable brother picked me up after lunch and took me around town to replace the previous posters with the newer bigger bulletins for the LGBT coffee/chat I'm attempting to get up and running. Wednesday after work is the kickoff and It's just a wait and see who shows. Fingers crossed for someone to show up other than me. I feel asleep in my chair last night and my glasses fell of and I somehow ended up sitting on them and bending the frames badly. Glen also took me get my frames fixed so I can see properly once again and took me to get some groceries. I love my brother, he is so good to me. This Christmas I have to get him something other than his usual bottle of Wine to show my appreciation for all that he has and continues to do for me.
I talked on the phone with Kris last night. She said she does not want to loose contact but she can not keep interacting with me in the way I want. I totally agree with this and have decided how I'm going to deal. I'm will periodnically send updates on my life to her WEB page but will not put anymore demands on her. We may actually Skype or talk on the phone periodically but I will NOT put any pressures on her to do so. I am happy these boundaries. Sure I don't like it and will miss interacting with her but I fully agree and understand this. Maybe it will actually be the way I need to free my mind and soul away from her. It has to happen and I have to treat our friendship as a very long distance friendship should be conducted.
So here I am at home, relaxing, regrouping at 3:30m. Nothing else happening for the rest of this day. Will post now but update should anything of any significance happen.
My gratitude is abundant for my brother and all that he has done for me. I am grateful for all that I've accomplished today and am so grateful for managing to come through so rough a time lately and the friends and family who were there for whenever I needed them. I am a very luck broad living an OK life. I am glad that I am alive right now with exciting plans developing for the near and far future.
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