Thurs.Jan 30/14

Obviously I have not touched my blog for quite some time again. My life is functioning but there have been so many things weighing me down that I just don't want to put any effort into it. Not too smart I know but shit it is what it is. Lost friendship with Carm. Not too much chatting with Kris. No word from Joanne. Pretty sure I won't hear from her ever again anyways. Starting up a friendship with a woman from my therapy group but not too sure how that will go. She is really nice but has many more issues that's she dealing than I do. Group is good but still not fully there or as fully as I know I should be. Volunteering is going OK but so many storms and road closures that I've been trapped in my apartment for days at a time. I attempted skating once last weekend but it was very difficult and have absolutely no abilities left at all. Will try again with Glen sometime during next week. I'm going to color my hair and I'm feeling radical and crazy about doing something I really shouldn't do. Years ago when life was getting to tuff to handle I would do something to my hair in an attempt to change my outside since I couldn't change my inside. I'm again feeling like that is happening to me. I hate the winter isolations I'm feeling. It scares me even though I come so far. For now that's all I want to record. Hope I will come back to it tomorrow. Will just have to take it moment by moment from here on out