https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pXMObfeOcE&feature=player_embedded#t=0
This is what keeps me going. My Spiritual Journey has take me many to many places within my heart and/soul. I hope I never loose this driving quest within me to learn as much as I can, do as much as I can and most importantly be able to let my past issues go and to keep moving forward in the positive way I'm working so very hard to be and do. It's a gift if received and one that I am so grateful for because it's given me a base from which I really hope to keep learning and growing from. I believe so deeply that God has put me on this path or journey to learn and grow as a worthwhile happy person. I have so much baggage I've be carrying on my shoulders that I must put behind me once and for all. It's been a hard, so very hard, journey so far and I know it's going to be a life long journey to find the peace and joy and happiness I am craving from every pore of my body and soul. There are days I get so excited but there are many dark days that must be faced and challenged if I want to be successful. I know God will help me when I has for help but I also know that I am the living embodiment of God in the human existence. We are all God with belief in the supreme being called God or the Devine or the Universe or whatever on Calls the Supreme all knowing, all guiding all loving God. I have to enact and make changes to my life and I've fought these changes for way too many years. I Don't Want to Life any More of my Life that way.
Today, I watched CSL Toronto and loved all of what I was hearing. It lifted my Heart so much that Iwas ready to leave my Apartment and go Visit with my Parents for a while this afternoon. I really enjoyed visiting with my Mom. She has been through a lot over the past few months but has been steadily getting her life back and her humour which I have always loved. I needed for mom to see me in the flesh to ensure her that although I have been facing a lot emotionally I am OK and not a serious threat to myself. She is much more reassured after my visit as I am about her.
I also was ready to send an email to Kris requesting a Skype session sometime this week maybe so that I can clean house with her and begin m moving on and taking, no tearing down, that huge huge pedestal I put her on and the control I let have on my mind, wants, needs and God and Kris know everything else I put on her. It is time, it is needed, it is the only right thing to do for both of us.
Well a fairly good day. No actually a very good day. Weather gorgeous, Schooter ride wonderful and refreshing. Ready for a quiet evening and a new day tomorrow.
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