Amazing to me that a whole 12 months have passed with Therapy Group and it's now over. What now am I going to do every Tuesday morning between 9-1pm. I only missed group maybe 2 times. I have received so very much guidance throughout this past year that I still can't believe how far I've come. I stumbled into this because I was so lost and suicidal
My therapist, Margo, appreciated the letter I gave her and Peter yesterday. I worked very hard on conveying what both she and Peter had meant to me over the past 12 months. I am really happy that she appreciated this and told me so this morning It was a good session with her and mainly just talked about my health issues and the stress of getting so much closer to going home for a week. It's less than 2 weeks away and I'm very nervous about the very long 12 hour bus trip. But I am getting very prepared and will be using all my skills to keep centred and not dwell in the emotions that will certainly keep churning up within me. I wanted to see her the Friday before I leave but no slots were available so am booked in for the day after I get back home. I'm ok with this and I'm sure there will be lots to discuss then.
I've been writing this over a number of days and it is now Saturday morning Last night I fell apart both physically and emotionally. It was bad for me, terrible actually. I called CCAC and initiated the call for help. I'm accepting more the knowledge that I need more assistance with the turning weather and loss of my scooter to get out and about. SuziQ has asked me to come over and visit today and Ed is picking me up and bringing me home. I need to be with good friends away from my place. I went over for about an hour or so and had a really nice time but I was very tired when I got home and slept on and off for the rest of the afternoon. A quiet evening and chatted online with one of my daughters. Her new boyfriend is a really nice looking young man and I'm so happy for her new found joy. I went too bed earlier than normal and slept well.
This morning Rocky woke me up way too early again around 5am. Not much happening today except to complete a couple of chores like cleaning out the litter box for Rocky which I know he'll be happy about.
Well I'll update my Journey when I feel the need in a couple of days. This week will be getting ready for my up and coming trip home. I'm so grateful for all that I have. For SuziQ being my wonderful friend and being there for me when I needed her. I'm so grateful for my Brother making the time to come and help me when I needed him most. Of course I'm more than grateful for my Kids and my Parents too. I so deeply love them all from deep deep within my Heart and Soul. I'm looking forward to the nourishment I'll receive from watching Rev. Jonathan's CSL Service later this morning as I need to feed my Soul with love and joy. Namaste to one and all.
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